It’s quiet. Too quiet. It’s that type of quiet that you know. The type that is familiar. You thought it passed. Thought it went away, but it didn’t.
Depression sucks. It’s not picky either. It creeps up on the most unsuspecting person and plants itself deep inside your soul. Sometimes you can ignore it. Sometimes it shows its ugly face so much so that it interferes with your daily life.
My depression has flared up on me lately. It is kept me from doing mom things. I want to get in the floor and play with my kids but I just can’t find the heart to do so.
I get up every morning and do the normal things that I’m supposed to do, I make sure they are dressed and make sure they are fed, but there’s this cloud that hangs. I smile but I’m hiding behind it. It’s not easy. And I’m getting help. I see a therapist, I’m on medication. Sometimes it takes somebody else to tell us that we’re depressed. For me it was my husband. Most of the depression that I’m going through right now is caused by the medication changes. But that doesn’t change the fact that it interferes with my life.
I’m writing this down because it’s important to make sure that you are aware of it. It’s important to make sure you get help. You don’t have to do it alone. You don’t have to climb into bed at night and worry about the following day. Always take it one day at a time, one step at a time, one moment at a time.
So like I said it’s quiet, but it won’t be forever. I just have to keep fighting. If you’re reading this and you’re also feeling like this, know that you are not alone. know that there will always be someone out there that will talk to you and help you. Don’t let depression take over your life so much so that it causes you to make irrational choices.
Life is precious. Hold on. You’re going to make it.